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:: chapter 5 :: Retrospective: Isabelle; stranded in the Wild
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I never had any doubt that all these hit and run operations could be performed by her alone. She's a Landforce elite, best of the best, just playing with us - that's what the reality implies. Yet deep inside there is a staggering, throbbing fear I and my buddies share - that the lioness isn't so powerful by her training and skill but by the psyche. And as with all superior psyches, I dread the possibility of it being hacked. Not directly - can't do that through the helmet - but hacked by an idea, by some event that would ignite her a spark of self-preservation or compassion. We all feared her snapping and going nuts. Should that happen, our deaths would be a mere collateral damage. Nevertheless, she opened my eyes. We were dust. We were the salt of the Earth.
"Squad, ready! Move!"
And we move. Her name's Isabelle, the lioness Master Sargent leading us through basic military training in the Czech forests and abandoned cities, brushing us to perfection. You couldn't really fail this kind of test, just die. Landforce powered infantry training isn't much different than real action. It's simple: practice, practice, practice. That's what it's all about. No simulation could exchange for the real thing.
I've been in this powered suit for a month. Running, fighting, eating, sleeping, the suit became my second skin and a natural extension of my brain. It saved me many times during combat and God knows, last few weeks were brutal. The team was brutal, too. I had no idea a species could mean so much. Me being the only raccoon in squad - I should have known - was an extra nuisance to deal with.
"Squad! Set guns to burst fire. Follow my target." Johnes - tiger survival instructor - points his arm with an obsolete gesture in age of mental commands. "Isabelle cover me, we're jumping down."
Master Sargent and instructor Johnes are falling down the cliff, engaging jet-packs and crushing the trees below. Mechs spotting them, knee-deep in conifer splinter they open fire at an instant, then Johnes sends us target data and we join the attack, railgun sniper rifles hitting the mech weak spots, tank fire sweeping around us. Me and four of my buddies tucked in a ball combining our deflector shields, I'm on the bridgehead, gun's recoil hitting my shoulder too bad but I fire on and on, never pause until the mechs are down. Johnes and Isabelle clash in close with the tanks, placing grenades and fleeing before explosions engulf the valley.
Infrared laser can't reach this far and Johnes' voice is cracked in our headsets. "Jo- - down - move -"
We approach cliff's edge. Rodger kicks my butt and I fall down, activating jet-packs just in time to avoid being smashed on the rocks below. Or worse, becoming a carried-around cripple, a squad's shame. I knew Isabelle would end my suffering should something like that happen. Leonov ended that way - cracked his spine and bang! - bullet in the forehead, she shot him in front of everyone. Like I told you, last few weeks have been brutal.
Hopefully on my feet again I run through the forest following my buddies, then we reach the opening ahead and regroup. Johnes orders us to line up and goes scouting the area while Isabelle walks around with an unfused grenade.
Oh, that sweet deep south accent. "Listen up, squad. I bet ya payed close attention of mine and Johnes' doin'." She's raises a grenade up in her hand, a good old X9-AFG substrate quark-bozon explosive. "Next time I wanna see one of you taking care of UN armor. Who's going to do me such a favor?"
We all raise hands. I raise it, too. If someone didn't she'd get the wimp and kick the hell out of him. But today I couldn't remember if I was first.
She turned her back. "So - the coon enlisted first. Okay private Sparzki. Grab!"
Isabelle throws the grenade and I catch it in mid-air, still not believing what just happened. "Squad dismissed for half minute." Then she walks away, a sleek feline figure joining with Johnes' perimeter scout.
Mentally unstable kitsune called Yukio taps my helmet. "Wash before use, Serg-Kun." And the squad giggles. Damn it, you silly redtail. Snyder and Rodgers pounce my back as I clamp the grenade to my belt, I almost fall down. "Heh, Serg, she likes you."
Johnes raises a hand interrupting our rest and we run forward, keeping low profile using holo-camouflage and EM silencers. The valley is wide and littered with UN patrols, there's a small base in the middle, high grass stopping the visual contact. Isabelle's forwarding us orders. I see, she's a smart girl. As we can't finish off the whole base by our own we're resorting to tricks. The premise is simple - if you don't have your own units, you rob the enemy. Too bad it couldn't be done at a distance.
Johnes, Isabelle, and Tangers are leading the attack. First enemy patrol would be approached from behind, Johnes and Isabelle distracting and isolating majority of units while Tangers jack in a lone mech or tank, turning it over to our control. I should cover our hacker and replace him in case he fails jacking in or gets killed. Rodgers, Yukio and Snyder would provide heavy-weapons backup, carefully damaging the unit to disable it's shielding but not too much else it would render it worthless. Always find the right balance, says Isabelle. The procedure should repeat until we have five tanks and two mechs, then we do a frontal attack on the base.
"Squad! Storm the patrol!"
We charge, Johnes pointing to a nearest engage vector. They can't spot us until we're hearing their movement sounds, poor lonesome robots. Three tanks, one bipedal mech. Tiger signals us to engage and destroy all but one tank. We start firing, coming close, camouflage of no use one they've spotted us. Circling around it Isabelle punches the mech hard with burst railgun shots, and it fires back raising clouds of dust around her boots, yet she's faster. Rodgers gets in a wrong place in wrong time - catching a close shot - his arm getting a nasty rip and he's screaming loud into the comm channel.
"Quiet! I'll crush you when we're done with practice." And she calls this practice. Sheesh!
Turning the mech into a flaming mess - moving like magic, every gesture a calculated perfection, every order a tactical check-mate - Isabelle Kobo is my wet dream. Often I let my mind wander, and I daydream her sharpened fangs ripping my throat and - pardon - I don't mind at all. Also I doubt I'm the only one in squad having that kind of fantasies.
"Shields down! Tangers jack in tank 1, what're you waiting for?"
Poor equine runs in a crossfire, takes few hits while jumping on a bruised and scorched tank, holds on to it's turret opening a barely visible hatch just under the joint and connecting a fiber cable to exposed cybernetic leads. On the other side Snyder and Yukio are exchanging fire with two combined tanks, launching missiles and railgun penetrator charges. Johnes' climbing the mech legs and placing grenades, I try to sneak around and fire few shots here and there, but then she spots me.
"Idle Sparzski! Engage tank 3."
And it goes. My heart starts pumping, adrenaline rush blinding thoughts of self-preservation, I grasp the X9 grenade and run, tank's turret targeting me, firing, I lean back and avoid the projectile, suit accelerating my moves, too close. Almost there. Crossfire punching my armor, still not serious. Afterwards I'll be symbolically punished for ruining the suit, that's all. Tank's within my reach, I fly my legs up and fall below it, tracks diffusing dirt around my face. There's 600 milliseconds to press a button on the grenade and spray a condensate superglue, after there's enough glue buildup I have to tightly pinch the grenade to tank's bottom. My time's expired and the tracks are running over crushing my fingers, but just before my arm's cracked in two I hop out and run again, in the corner of my helmet a pop-up box with a mental command icon - just think about it and it's detonated - think, think private Sparzki! What's that icon showing? A bomb? Yes, think hard about an iron ball with a string fuse. How dumb.
A crossbreeding product of nano-scale hydrogen bomb and a land mine, the X9 grenade detonates. Soup of hot plasma and shrapnel blizzard encompasses myself and my buddies but deflectors manage to shake off the sharpest debris. All done in a 1750 milliseconds. She explained us the procedure only once. More than 2 seconds and you'd be dead, private.
"Tank 4, Sparzski. Catch."
She throws me another grenade. Alright, run, I can't sense my left hand's fingers, nothing solid inside the glove - just a warm goo - doesn't matter. I hop below the last tank scheduled for termination placing the grenade, sneaking out and running, tank firing a shot at my back. It's too close to be deflected and I lean down changing the attack angle to my favor, detonating the grenade at the same millisecond I drop to ground. Too late, tank's shell hitting me, blowing my backpack and who knows what else. My shoulders and back are a juicy bloody mess. Oh no. Crap. She sees me.
"Yukio tie the screw'd coon to tank's turret."
I can feel my legs. God I can feel my bloody legs! Spine intact, hooray! Patrol's neutralized, squad goes on with wreck checkup and energy scavenging. Isabelle and Johnes on scout, Yukio fetches a steel cable from his backpack and ties my arms and legs to hacked tank's cannon - like a hunt - letting my flayed back drop bent, blood and burned fur mixing together. It's hurting like... No I can't explain, I won't even try. Yukio pays me a sad look but I don't blame him. There's only Isabelle, and the punishment for my inability to fulfill a simple order has to be carried out. We're walking in formation again, searching for another patrol to catch. Isabelle. Oh, my back! Ugh.
Tangers comes close examining my injuries, shaking head left and right. Please help me, Tan! Enable suit's painkiller drugs - I try my best to speak on body language. He knows a thing or two about medicine but isn't eager to show it during combat. Finally we understand each other - me taking the punishment, and him denying me the med treatment.
Squad's on the move again. I'm tied to pawned tank's turret, and Tangers is sitting on the dome, observing scenery. Then he touches my hand opening one-to-one private channel. "Telemetry sensory transfer. Most I could offer."
He understands my options. Heh, that's a grim deal. He'll drop me into this tank's guts and and I'll be the driver. A brain in a vat. But if this barely-moving tracker gets destroyed no one's coming back for me. I'll have to gamble, to remain outside - immobile, exposing myself to Isabelle's dishonoring looks, ending my military career, hopefully surviving - or I could commandeer this tank and get killed. Maybe I'll stand an hour of combat before she takes her pity upon me, then they would lift me up from the tank and treat my injuries.
We close on to another patrol, two mechs and three tanks. She glances over myself seeing Tan holding my hand, knowing what I'm about to choose. "Okay Tan, put me in. I'll drive the thing."
And for a brief moment I swear I could see her smiling. Of course there's no way I could possibly see that behind a reflective visor, yet overall movement of her body, the way she moved her head - there was the fire, the thrill of challenge. She smiled, oh, that's good.
Good my ass. Ouch! Tangers untying my limbs and carelessly dropping me into a single empty space inside the unmanned tank, a tight hole in engine's compartment. Tank's power train includes a hybrid fossil-hydrogen gas turbine - so gross, so inefficient - and I thank God for suit's closed air. My exposed back's rubbing the hot pipes, engine's rumble shaking my skull bones, but I won't mind. Last thing I see is Tangers' hand throwing me an optical cable and closing the engine hatch. Then I'm in a complete darkness, surrounded with hot machines, bleeding, oh well. Groping for two seconds I find the cable end and plug it to my helmet jack. Two seconds of computer synchronization, then a retinal projection of outside world fill my eyes, suit's computer taking over the tank, Coulomb helmet stealing my brain from my body. I'm nothing but an intelligence floating in a stream of inputs and outputs. Like a computer game.
Now if there weren't that distant shivering pain giggling and ripping through my flesh I wouldn't tell a difference between this and a full simstim.
We approach the second patrol. Isabelle vectorizes the attack, plotting our courses and engagements. I drive the tank circling around the first mech, firing 70mm rounds into it's top part and antennas, getting a shivering shudder in return as tank's side armor gets ripped away. Vehicle's wireframe model in my left eye gets all dinky with damage descriptors. Engine behind stops then restarts.
Snyder gets between the tank and the mech, diverting the fire. "Move for God's sake!" Stop playing hero you stupid wolf. She hates heroes.
"Snyder, tanks 3-4 engage now." Roaring brilliance.
I re-couple tank's mechanics to auxiliary transmission and with a hard kick on my back - ouch - it's mobile again, driving and shooting. Clashes continues on and I rotate, exposing the healthy side to incoming fire. First mech enters a crossfire and it's REV-bat explodes bringing Rodgers to ground. Can't help him now, driving around the attack vector Isabelle gave us, returning fire, tank's fixed munition packs good for thirty more shots. Snyder runs and grabs Rodgers, lifting and carrying the fellow wolf away from the offense zone, then continuing the attack.
"We're taking second mech. Yukio take the lead and escort Tagers." Talking without a pause while blowing up tanks in a deadly tandem with Johnes. "Sparzki, disable mech 2 shielding."
She got me idle - well, that's her definition of idle. I adjust my movement path to encompass the second mech, targeting deflector coils - small bulges on it's legs and belly. Precisely now, turret moving slowly, fire correction computer analyzing a thrust bearing failure, recalculating, one chance, charge the railgun, firing. I feel a pipe of some sort hitting my loin, gun's recoil drafting a fissure on my back. In 50 milliseconds projectile reaches mech's shoulder, penetrating the ablative armor, flushing out the deflectors. Perfect.
On my left Yukio's shooting down repair bots while Tangers' plugging himself into mech's service hatch, hands holding on to something, head falling down in a hacking trance. Johnes comes close to Snyder, checking Rodgers for two seconds than leaving for Isabelle walking around tank wrecks.
"Bombers ETA 5 seconds. Tangers report."
Distracted by jacking in the mech Tan doesn't reply. The walker starts firing back, first layer of tank's front armor gets flushed and my front eyesight goes blank as a camera incinerates. Turning the tank on the side I get a better view, continuing to pin-point deflector coils, then I stop for a second as Isabelle's climbing the mech in a single long jump, grabbing Tan's legs and pulling the cable out of disillusioned equine, plugging herself into mech's cybernetics. Can't fire now with her on the mech, but hopefully the huge walker starts turning around, firing rounds in air, then halts - it's photonic brain reformatted, loaded with our OS.
"Sparzki I'm relaying you mech telemetry access codes." And then three bombers flew away above us, each dropping a smart missile. First one scratches the mech, deflecting in air, and the remaining two got disabled by an EMP interceptor missile launched from Isabelle's backpack. "Engage fighters now."
True to the word, the mech's top gauss guns could be used as a fine flak. As my suit's computer connects to the mech brain, it's cybernetics unfold in front of me like a hideous rose, another reality superimposes the one already occupied with my body and tank sensorium. I feel an extra command set tickling my synapses through the helmet's Coulomb projector, it makes all the hurt and shudder in my bleeding rear go away. The moment first bomber got punched down falling with a deafening bang she climbed to my tank's turret dome and personally tracked the remaining two, protecting my tank with her generation-five adaptable shields. After the third hedge-hop the fighters are gone, pulverized to dust. Yukio's shaking Tangers' shoulders, recovering him from a hacking failure, and soon he's able to run again.
"One more patrol. Northwest, get going!" We run again, I command both the tank I'm in as well the mech. Snyder's carrying Rodgers on his shoulder, I zoom in the image wondering if he'll make it out alive. Formation is adapting as we approach out target, Johnes gets in front followed by Yukio and Tangers preparing heavy rifles, after them comes the tank and the mech. She doesn't bother leaving my vehicle until we reach the third patrol.
Looking at burdened wolf she mutters in disgust. "Leave him be, private Snyder. He's dead already." Wolf shows no sign of hearing her order, just keeps on going. Times will be tough for him while carrying fallen Rodgers. Snyder's a free C5 citizen, but we're not in Kansas anymore. The moment Isabelle decides his productivity drops she'll probably execute him the same day, leaving both wolves behind, and he knows that too well.
Out of the blinding silence a quadrupedal mech escorted with six medium tanks pops out in a high grass clearing. Slowly approaching, confident in it's firepower superiority, it sends waves of shiver through my spine.
"We taking everything. Don't destroy." After plotting the attack vectors she goes into combat, drifting through crossfire and personally hacking tanks at a suicide distance. It's a wicked dance, climbing from one tank then jumping to another while dragging the fiber cable, plugging it in mid-air and disconnecting after some half-second of necrine trance. The equine does the same from other side of the formation, miraculously avoiding direct hits. Of course he's a way slower.
"Tangers you're an underperformer, I can't waste any more time on you. Take the quad and maybe I'll change my mind." Now she's surrounded, cannon rounds screaming about her head last moment deflected, she runs again. "Johnes, cover me while I finish with tracked armor. Rest of you disable quad's shields."
We continue firing at four-legged walker targeting deflector coils but it's shielding and armor's too strong, our projectiles ricocheting in vain. Then the quad starts firing back, first hit runs into my tank, I feel an overwhelming thrust dropping me to floor. Some smoke gushes out. What's left of vehicle diagnostic circuits is reporting armor ruined everywhere, no remaining outside cameras, primary engine failure - overall breakdown in 3 minutes. I use commandeered mech to cover me. Yukio gets shot and moves behind my tank, panting and running suit's emergency first aid.
As more and more tanks are handed over to my command I feel a creeping but steady pulse in my head and shoulders. Helmet searching for unused brain zones to occupy with new units sensorium and blood loss taking it's toll - what's left of my own body is a distant slippery falling down sensation, shriveling to a fetal position, rolling in own blood. Hold it! Don't snap the optical cable!
Seeing the scene from all directions and tanks cameras I observe Tangers creeping up the quad's leg, approaching a repair hatch on it's belly while pulse rifle fire buzzes all around. Isabelle had finished with the tanks, now she's just running around, watching what'll Tan do. Yukio patches himself and joins Snyder's suppressive fire.
Nothing important happens for some time. We're still pinning the quad, and I wonder who will run out of ammo first. Tangers still hanging over the mech's belly, tinkering with the cybernetics, apparently failing to find a proper connection. He pulls himself deeper into the machinery, legs disappearing inside the hatch searching for another plug or socket to jack in. Then the quad starts firing fragmentation mortars catching us on surprise.
We duck and crawl avoiding getting scorched. Isabelle shouts. "Bring it down! Bring it down!"
Not waiting for further clarification I engage my commandeered units to open fire at the quadrupedal mech. Six tanks plus my own and the still standing mech launch a heavy suppressive fire depleting quad's shields, breaking it's armor to pieces. About that time I begin wondering how's Tangers feeling inside, and I guess he's wondering if armor would crush his bones. Maybe he'll have enough courage to jump down the service hatch and meet Isabelle's anger.
Johnes returns from scouting. "Five bombers ETA 30 seconds. We ought to go."
Now I see her running towards the quad, into the crossfire inferno, getting a clear shot in the chest and arm but not stopping, climbing up it's leg and leaping inside the service hatch. I imagine her plugging in and passing through the walker's logic cores, recompiling a new OS, loading into hardware and doing a long debugging session, all done in half a second of necrine trance. Quad halts in mid-step. Five seconds later we see Tangers falling on the ground and she follows, beaming with pleasure, a successful huntress bragging about her prey.
Four-legged mech opens a telemetry channel with the tank I'm in, overburdening me with unending torrent of command and service data. I assume she recompiled the OS adding verbose feeds just to test if it could drown me. I probe quad's responses - it's quite slow, one leg disabled and armor pierced like moon surface, but it's turrets still operate.
"Another patrol and we're done. Sparzki keep off the bombers, tanks in rear formation."
I glean enough courage to argue. "Master sergant Isabelle, my vehicle is critically damaged. Permission to change?"
She's already in motion, and the rest of squad follow. Quad's radar shows bomber jets closing on. I order tanks to move, mech follows me and for a blink of second an infinitely powerful pain sensation touches my mind, unfortunately what's left of my senses isn't enough to process real life. Urge to check what's happening with me is put aside as the bombers approach quad's range. Opening fire on all flak windows, both mechs responding properly, taking out one bomber then a missile salvo hits the quad and the mech, third projectile misses my tank by five feet.
It comes to my mind she haven't responded to my plead, next second the tank's engine stops. Gas turbine suffering catastrophic damage, restart impossible. Squad and the six tanks are grabbing forward, more and more distant from me every second. Quad's gone, blown away, and the remaining mech's reporting REV-bat damage and munition packs malfunction.
Nowhere to run. Alone.
I think of shutdown, of computer destruction, of breaking every single terminal in existence. It's enough for helmet to understand my mental command, and it disconnects me from the sensorium. Return of my body senses shake me thoughtfully and I scream inside the tank wreck, hysterically jerking and ramming my hands no one hearing me.
I wonder what's Isabelle thinking now seeing the six tanks stop behind her. Probably she's already transferring their command telemetry to Tangers. I don't know. What I do see coming, right now, are two bombers closing on to my wreck, launching more missiles ripping through the tank chassis leaving me just enough room to sneak out of the hull and drop to ground feeling blood coming over my face and opening the helmet visor, breathing outside air first time in weeks.
Then it's cold.
Second thing I remember are Snyder and Yukio arching above me, whispering something - dressed in crude white wool pants. I'm in a structure or vehicle of some kind, still in my suit, visor down. My back doesn't hurt and my left hand is still a meat soup. Scents of death and disease float around the dim light and my nose twitches.
"Rise and shine cooney. There's work to do."
They stand back and I get to see where I am. It's a room with concrete walls and multitude of pipes and cables running on the roof. On my left there's another armored suit, chest and shoulder inscriptions reveal it's Rodgers, he doesn't move. I touch his hand opening a service channel but suit's giving no readouts so I give up.
"He's gone, Serg. Mortal concussion, brain hemorrhage." Snyder's once rasp voice is cut in two. "I could have saved him if there wasn't that-"
"Shut up, Sny." Yukio looked straight into my eyes. "You see, me and my wolf buddy have, err, slacked."
"Deserted. Left for good." Snyder corrected.
Bleak fluorescent light groups on the ceiling manage to blind my eyes. Floor is of same hard concrete as the walls, and on the walls there are wooden shelves tucked with all sorts of stuff, mostly some kind of boxes and bottles. I get up on my feet and look around, slowly, not to interrupt pleasant nothingness on my back. A quick glance reveals more than a dozen people - furs and humans - dressed in rags, lying on dirty mattresses. Some are nude. Very few actually move or breathe, and they who do sound like a flattened bagpipe. Almost every breathing figure is having two metal pails - a bigger and a smaller one within reach - and I guess what they contain. At room's end there are two doors, one door is open and I wonder where does it leads. Then I notice by buddies took my rifle and ammo.
Disarmed and puzzled I look back to vulpine. "What happened?" So stupid, so down-to-earth question.
After five seconds of silence Yukio replies, not without hesitation. "We got split. Isabelle, Johnes and Tangers went attacking the base, me and Snyder got back searching for you."
"Me?" Would there be any traces of compassion after a month of Isabelle's drill? After a month of ass-kicking? I really don't know.
Snyder's looking at me seriously. "After Leonov and Rodgers I couldn't stand another execution. So I came back for you." I have it from your own words, Sny. You didn't have a heart of stone but of something else.
"But - we must return to our squad leader. Where are we?"
Yukio glanced at something then turned around. "Heh. There was a mixed fur-human village near that UN base, and we dragged you in there, avoiding patrols. So yeah, you see, we're in a basement hospital of sorts."
As my gaze wanders out through the open doors I see a hallway leading to another room, pretty similar to one we're at, with difference of metal beds instead of plain mattresses visible through the doorway. I begin to envy myself wearing a powered suit. "Now what? We're lost without a squad leader. We must find a way of getting back home to C5."
Snyder grabs my shoulder. "There is life outside the cities, Sergei. Look around."
The room bounces back and forth my eyesight, and I feel dizzy. Something's so wrong. Red-tail taps my forehead then kneels at Rodgers, dismounting armor from the corpse. He touches my hips. "Take off your suit."
"Wh - why?" Suddenly, I feel so fragile.
A short look down is enough to shock me. Down on the floor, I'm seeing Rodgers' body, now a skinny, pale, and dirty lupine. His left hand and neck is a foul battlefield where infection overpowered the smart-bandage. The wolf's muzzle gaps slightly open, tongue dipping out, eyes closed, the muscular fur matted with sweat and smudged with blood. Away from combat, in a small room like this, it's a disturbing sight. His stomach's swell and suit's cushion pillows are splotched red and yellow and brown. I put a healthy hand over my nose, dazed by the month-worth of odor buildup. Rodger's corpse reeks like every good corpse does.
"Many would kill to spend half an hour in that armor." Snyder measures my reaction. "And your pelt haven't seen daylight for a month. Come on."
Yukio touches a release latch on my belt and I confirm the mental command, ordering the exosuit to unclamp from my body. I pant and whimper as the smart-bandage on my back shifts and changes position. A stream of fresh blood shivers through the bandange and down my back, sipping across my wet tail and my shamefully soiled rear. My left hand's a big white bandaged blob, and I hope there's enough stem-cell ointment to let it regenerate. Yukio and Snyder take off parts of my suit as they slowly detach and fall off my body.
Someone whispers hearing my moans, reminding me I'm not the only one suffering.
"Here ya go, Sny." Yukio takes off my boots and hands them to wolf who carries my gear to the other room.
I'm shaking. I'm standing on my bare paws, looking like a confused raccoon kit, who imagined playing a super-soldier with his buddies, watched by the careless mother. Now, homeless and futureless, I stand nude among the unknown.
Damned fox slaps my butt. "Sparky coon! Grab Rodgers, we gotta carry him to a recycling tank."
I silently obey, kneeling and grabbing dead wolf's shoulder, feeling a blood dribble increase as my back is loaded. Yukio grins, lifting wolf's legs and turning back on me. "I have to find you something to wear. You can't go around the place naked."
Dribbling blood and panting hot steam, following a tail-wiggling fox carrying a corpse through dark tunnels of a barely surviving underground co-op, I enter a world completely unknown to me. A parallel world I only heard stories and rumors about. A cosmos of now.
The Wild.
"Some find nudity offensive," Yukio adds to his previous remark, "these aren't liberal places, remember. We're on the Earth's surface."
Will I ever see City Five again? What awaits us in this place?
"But we are C5 citizens!" I say, panting. "We can make an ELF radio and call a dropship or a shuttle to..."
"We are dust." Yukio cuts me off, his voice flat. "Our citizenship was revoked the moment we became deserters."
"What?" I scream, then listen to the echo of it, bouncing through the empty halls.
He presses a button using his nose. "Stand back!"
A loud pump powers up behind us, engaging a pair of cylinders which reveal a hatch on the deck below us.
"This is it." Yukio says, putting Rodgers on the riveted ground. "End of the line, buddy. Ashes to ashes..."
"Dust to dust." I finish, not knowing what else to say. We drop Rodgers' body inside the hydroponics recycler, and watch it slowly sink into the liquid.
The sour scent of dung and disease crawls up my nostrils and I let it go. We can never go home. There are no tears but through the abyss of memories I imagine myself crying. We are dust.
In two years I met Isabelle again, but this time we were on opposite sides.
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:: chapter 5 :: Retrospective: Isabelle; stranded in the Wild
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I never had any doubt that all these hit and run operations could be performed by her alone. She's a Landforce elite, best of the best, just playing with us - that's what the reality implies. Yet deep inside there is a staggering, throbbing fear I and my buddies share - that the lioness isn't so powerful by her training and skill but by the psyche. And as with all superior psyches, I dread the possibility of it being hacked. Not directly - can't do that through the helmet - but hacked by an idea, by some event that would ignite her a spark of self-preservation or compassion. We all feared her snapping and going nuts. Should that happen, our deaths would be a mere collateral damage. Nevertheless, she opened my eyes. We were dust. We were the salt of the Earth.
"Squad, ready! Move!"
And we move. Her name's Isabelle, the lioness Master Sargent leading us through basic military training in the Czech forests and abandoned cities, brushing us to perfection. You couldn't really fail this kind of test, just die. Landforce powered infantry training isn't much different than real action. It's simple: practice, practice, practice. That's what it's all about. No simulation could exchange for the real thing.
I've been in this powered suit for a month. Running, fighting, eating, sleeping, the suit became my second skin and a natural extension of my brain. It saved me many times during combat and God knows, last few weeks were brutal. The team was brutal, too. I had no idea a species could mean so much. Me being the only raccoon in squad - I should have known - was an extra nuisance to deal with.
"Squad! Set guns to burst fire. Follow my target." Johnes - tiger survival instructor - points his arm with an obsolete gesture in age of mental commands. "Isabelle cover me, we're jumping down."
Master Sargent and instructor Johnes are falling down the cliff, engaging jet-packs and crushing the trees below. Mechs spotting them, knee-deep in conifer splinter they open fire at an instant, then Johnes sends us target data and we join the attack, railgun sniper rifles hitting the mech weak spots, tank fire sweeping around us. Me and four of my buddies tucked in a ball combining our deflector shields, I'm on the bridgehead, gun's recoil hitting my shoulder too bad but I fire on and on, never pause until the mechs are down. Johnes and Isabelle clash in close with the tanks, placing grenades and fleeing before explosions engulf the valley.
Infrared laser can't reach this far and Johnes' voice is cracked in our headsets. "Jo- - down - move -"
We approach cliff's edge. Rodger kicks my butt and I fall down, activating jet-packs just in time to avoid being smashed on the rocks below. Or worse, becoming a carried-around cripple, a squad's shame. I knew Isabelle would end my suffering should something like that happen. Leonov ended that way - cracked his spine and bang! - bullet in the forehead, she shot him in front of everyone. Like I told you, last few weeks have been brutal.
Hopefully on my feet again I run through the forest following my buddies, then we reach the opening ahead and regroup. Johnes orders us to line up and goes scouting the area while Isabelle walks around with an unfused grenade.
Oh, that sweet deep south accent. "Listen up, squad. I bet ya payed close attention of mine and Johnes' doin'." She's raises a grenade up in her hand, a good old X9-AFG substrate quark-bozon explosive. "Next time I wanna see one of you taking care of UN armor. Who's going to do me such a favor?"
We all raise hands. I raise it, too. If someone didn't she'd get the wimp and kick the hell out of him. But today I couldn't remember if I was first.
She turned her back. "So - the coon enlisted first. Okay private Sparzki. Grab!"
Isabelle throws the grenade and I catch it in mid-air, still not believing what just happened. "Squad dismissed for half minute." Then she walks away, a sleek feline figure joining with Johnes' perimeter scout.
Mentally unstable kitsune called Yukio taps my helmet. "Wash before use, Serg-Kun." And the squad giggles. Damn it, you silly redtail. Snyder and Rodgers pounce my back as I clamp the grenade to my belt, I almost fall down. "Heh, Serg, she likes you."
Johnes raises a hand interrupting our rest and we run forward, keeping low profile using holo-camouflage and EM silencers. The valley is wide and littered with UN patrols, there's a small base in the middle, high grass stopping the visual contact. Isabelle's forwarding us orders. I see, she's a smart girl. As we can't finish off the whole base by our own we're resorting to tricks. The premise is simple - if you don't have your own units, you rob the enemy. Too bad it couldn't be done at a distance.
Johnes, Isabelle, and Tangers are leading the attack. First enemy patrol would be approached from behind, Johnes and Isabelle distracting and isolating majority of units while Tangers jack in a lone mech or tank, turning it over to our control. I should cover our hacker and replace him in case he fails jacking in or gets killed. Rodgers, Yukio and Snyder would provide heavy-weapons backup, carefully damaging the unit to disable it's shielding but not too much else it would render it worthless. Always find the right balance, says Isabelle. The procedure should repeat until we have five tanks and two mechs, then we do a frontal attack on the base.
"Squad! Storm the patrol!"
We charge, Johnes pointing to a nearest engage vector. They can't spot us until we're hearing their movement sounds, poor lonesome robots. Three tanks, one bipedal mech. Tiger signals us to engage and destroy all but one tank. We start firing, coming close, camouflage of no use one they've spotted us. Circling around it Isabelle punches the mech hard with burst railgun shots, and it fires back raising clouds of dust around her boots, yet she's faster. Rodgers gets in a wrong place in wrong time - catching a close shot - his arm getting a nasty rip and he's screaming loud into the comm channel.
"Quiet! I'll crush you when we're done with practice." And she calls this practice. Sheesh!
Turning the mech into a flaming mess - moving like magic, every gesture a calculated perfection, every order a tactical check-mate - Isabelle Kobo is my wet dream. Often I let my mind wander, and I daydream her sharpened fangs ripping my throat and - pardon - I don't mind at all. Also I doubt I'm the only one in squad having that kind of fantasies.
"Shields down! Tangers jack in tank 1, what're you waiting for?"
Poor equine runs in a crossfire, takes few hits while jumping on a bruised and scorched tank, holds on to it's turret opening a barely visible hatch just under the joint and connecting a fiber cable to exposed cybernetic leads. On the other side Snyder and Yukio are exchanging fire with two combined tanks, launching missiles and railgun penetrator charges. Johnes' climbing the mech legs and placing grenades, I try to sneak around and fire few shots here and there, but then she spots me.
"Idle Sparzski! Engage tank 3."
And it goes. My heart starts pumping, adrenaline rush blinding thoughts of self-preservation, I grasp the X9 grenade and run, tank's turret targeting me, firing, I lean back and avoid the projectile, suit accelerating my moves, too close. Almost there. Crossfire punching my armor, still not serious. Afterwards I'll be symbolically punished for ruining the suit, that's all. Tank's within my reach, I fly my legs up and fall below it, tracks diffusing dirt around my face. There's 600 milliseconds to press a button on the grenade and spray a condensate superglue, after there's enough glue buildup I have to tightly pinch the grenade to tank's bottom. My time's expired and the tracks are running over crushing my fingers, but just before my arm's cracked in two I hop out and run again, in the corner of my helmet a pop-up box with a mental command icon - just think about it and it's detonated - think, think private Sparzki! What's that icon showing? A bomb? Yes, think hard about an iron ball with a string fuse. How dumb.
A crossbreeding product of nano-scale hydrogen bomb and a land mine, the X9 grenade detonates. Soup of hot plasma and shrapnel blizzard encompasses myself and my buddies but deflectors manage to shake off the sharpest debris. All done in a 1750 milliseconds. She explained us the procedure only once. More than 2 seconds and you'd be dead, private.
"Tank 4, Sparzski. Catch."
She throws me another grenade. Alright, run, I can't sense my left hand's fingers, nothing solid inside the glove - just a warm goo - doesn't matter. I hop below the last tank scheduled for termination placing the grenade, sneaking out and running, tank firing a shot at my back. It's too close to be deflected and I lean down changing the attack angle to my favor, detonating the grenade at the same millisecond I drop to ground. Too late, tank's shell hitting me, blowing my backpack and who knows what else. My shoulders and back are a juicy bloody mess. Oh no. Crap. She sees me.
"Yukio tie the screw'd coon to tank's turret."
I can feel my legs. God I can feel my bloody legs! Spine intact, hooray! Patrol's neutralized, squad goes on with wreck checkup and energy scavenging. Isabelle and Johnes on scout, Yukio fetches a steel cable from his backpack and ties my arms and legs to hacked tank's cannon - like a hunt - letting my flayed back drop bent, blood and burned fur mixing together. It's hurting like... No I can't explain, I won't even try. Yukio pays me a sad look but I don't blame him. There's only Isabelle, and the punishment for my inability to fulfill a simple order has to be carried out. We're walking in formation again, searching for another patrol to catch. Isabelle. Oh, my back! Ugh.
Tangers comes close examining my injuries, shaking head left and right. Please help me, Tan! Enable suit's painkiller drugs - I try my best to speak on body language. He knows a thing or two about medicine but isn't eager to show it during combat. Finally we understand each other - me taking the punishment, and him denying me the med treatment.
Squad's on the move again. I'm tied to pawned tank's turret, and Tangers is sitting on the dome, observing scenery. Then he touches my hand opening one-to-one private channel. "Telemetry sensory transfer. Most I could offer."
He understands my options. Heh, that's a grim deal. He'll drop me into this tank's guts and and I'll be the driver. A brain in a vat. But if this barely-moving tracker gets destroyed no one's coming back for me. I'll have to gamble, to remain outside - immobile, exposing myself to Isabelle's dishonoring looks, ending my military career, hopefully surviving - or I could commandeer this tank and get killed. Maybe I'll stand an hour of combat before she takes her pity upon me, then they would lift me up from the tank and treat my injuries.
We close on to another patrol, two mechs and three tanks. She glances over myself seeing Tan holding my hand, knowing what I'm about to choose. "Okay Tan, put me in. I'll drive the thing."
And for a brief moment I swear I could see her smiling. Of course there's no way I could possibly see that behind a reflective visor, yet overall movement of her body, the way she moved her head - there was the fire, the thrill of challenge. She smiled, oh, that's good.
Good my ass. Ouch! Tangers untying my limbs and carelessly dropping me into a single empty space inside the unmanned tank, a tight hole in engine's compartment. Tank's power train includes a hybrid fossil-hydrogen gas turbine - so gross, so inefficient - and I thank God for suit's closed air. My exposed back's rubbing the hot pipes, engine's rumble shaking my skull bones, but I won't mind. Last thing I see is Tangers' hand throwing me an optical cable and closing the engine hatch. Then I'm in a complete darkness, surrounded with hot machines, bleeding, oh well. Groping for two seconds I find the cable end and plug it to my helmet jack. Two seconds of computer synchronization, then a retinal projection of outside world fill my eyes, suit's computer taking over the tank, Coulomb helmet stealing my brain from my body. I'm nothing but an intelligence floating in a stream of inputs and outputs. Like a computer game.
Now if there weren't that distant shivering pain giggling and ripping through my flesh I wouldn't tell a difference between this and a full simstim.
We approach the second patrol. Isabelle vectorizes the attack, plotting our courses and engagements. I drive the tank circling around the first mech, firing 70mm rounds into it's top part and antennas, getting a shivering shudder in return as tank's side armor gets ripped away. Vehicle's wireframe model in my left eye gets all dinky with damage descriptors. Engine behind stops then restarts.
Snyder gets between the tank and the mech, diverting the fire. "Move for God's sake!" Stop playing hero you stupid wolf. She hates heroes.
"Snyder, tanks 3-4 engage now." Roaring brilliance.
I re-couple tank's mechanics to auxiliary transmission and with a hard kick on my back - ouch - it's mobile again, driving and shooting. Clashes continues on and I rotate, exposing the healthy side to incoming fire. First mech enters a crossfire and it's REV-bat explodes bringing Rodgers to ground. Can't help him now, driving around the attack vector Isabelle gave us, returning fire, tank's fixed munition packs good for thirty more shots. Snyder runs and grabs Rodgers, lifting and carrying the fellow wolf away from the offense zone, then continuing the attack.
"We're taking second mech. Yukio take the lead and escort Tagers." Talking without a pause while blowing up tanks in a deadly tandem with Johnes. "Sparzki, disable mech 2 shielding."
She got me idle - well, that's her definition of idle. I adjust my movement path to encompass the second mech, targeting deflector coils - small bulges on it's legs and belly. Precisely now, turret moving slowly, fire correction computer analyzing a thrust bearing failure, recalculating, one chance, charge the railgun, firing. I feel a pipe of some sort hitting my loin, gun's recoil drafting a fissure on my back. In 50 milliseconds projectile reaches mech's shoulder, penetrating the ablative armor, flushing out the deflectors. Perfect.
On my left Yukio's shooting down repair bots while Tangers' plugging himself into mech's service hatch, hands holding on to something, head falling down in a hacking trance. Johnes comes close to Snyder, checking Rodgers for two seconds than leaving for Isabelle walking around tank wrecks.
"Bombers ETA 5 seconds. Tangers report."
Distracted by jacking in the mech Tan doesn't reply. The walker starts firing back, first layer of tank's front armor gets flushed and my front eyesight goes blank as a camera incinerates. Turning the tank on the side I get a better view, continuing to pin-point deflector coils, then I stop for a second as Isabelle's climbing the mech in a single long jump, grabbing Tan's legs and pulling the cable out of disillusioned equine, plugging herself into mech's cybernetics. Can't fire now with her on the mech, but hopefully the huge walker starts turning around, firing rounds in air, then halts - it's photonic brain reformatted, loaded with our OS.
"Sparzki I'm relaying you mech telemetry access codes." And then three bombers flew away above us, each dropping a smart missile. First one scratches the mech, deflecting in air, and the remaining two got disabled by an EMP interceptor missile launched from Isabelle's backpack. "Engage fighters now."
True to the word, the mech's top gauss guns could be used as a fine flak. As my suit's computer connects to the mech brain, it's cybernetics unfold in front of me like a hideous rose, another reality superimposes the one already occupied with my body and tank sensorium. I feel an extra command set tickling my synapses through the helmet's Coulomb projector, it makes all the hurt and shudder in my bleeding rear go away. The moment first bomber got punched down falling with a deafening bang she climbed to my tank's turret dome and personally tracked the remaining two, protecting my tank with her generation-five adaptable shields. After the third hedge-hop the fighters are gone, pulverized to dust. Yukio's shaking Tangers' shoulders, recovering him from a hacking failure, and soon he's able to run again.
"One more patrol. Northwest, get going!" We run again, I command both the tank I'm in as well the mech. Snyder's carrying Rodgers on his shoulder, I zoom in the image wondering if he'll make it out alive. Formation is adapting as we approach out target, Johnes gets in front followed by Yukio and Tangers preparing heavy rifles, after them comes the tank and the mech. She doesn't bother leaving my vehicle until we reach the third patrol.
Looking at burdened wolf she mutters in disgust. "Leave him be, private Snyder. He's dead already." Wolf shows no sign of hearing her order, just keeps on going. Times will be tough for him while carrying fallen Rodgers. Snyder's a free C5 citizen, but we're not in Kansas anymore. The moment Isabelle decides his productivity drops she'll probably execute him the same day, leaving both wolves behind, and he knows that too well.
Out of the blinding silence a quadrupedal mech escorted with six medium tanks pops out in a high grass clearing. Slowly approaching, confident in it's firepower superiority, it sends waves of shiver through my spine.
"We taking everything. Don't destroy." After plotting the attack vectors she goes into combat, drifting through crossfire and personally hacking tanks at a suicide distance. It's a wicked dance, climbing from one tank then jumping to another while dragging the fiber cable, plugging it in mid-air and disconnecting after some half-second of necrine trance. The equine does the same from other side of the formation, miraculously avoiding direct hits. Of course he's a way slower.
"Tangers you're an underperformer, I can't waste any more time on you. Take the quad and maybe I'll change my mind." Now she's surrounded, cannon rounds screaming about her head last moment deflected, she runs again. "Johnes, cover me while I finish with tracked armor. Rest of you disable quad's shields."
We continue firing at four-legged walker targeting deflector coils but it's shielding and armor's too strong, our projectiles ricocheting in vain. Then the quad starts firing back, first hit runs into my tank, I feel an overwhelming thrust dropping me to floor. Some smoke gushes out. What's left of vehicle diagnostic circuits is reporting armor ruined everywhere, no remaining outside cameras, primary engine failure - overall breakdown in 3 minutes. I use commandeered mech to cover me. Yukio gets shot and moves behind my tank, panting and running suit's emergency first aid.
As more and more tanks are handed over to my command I feel a creeping but steady pulse in my head and shoulders. Helmet searching for unused brain zones to occupy with new units sensorium and blood loss taking it's toll - what's left of my own body is a distant slippery falling down sensation, shriveling to a fetal position, rolling in own blood. Hold it! Don't snap the optical cable!
Seeing the scene from all directions and tanks cameras I observe Tangers creeping up the quad's leg, approaching a repair hatch on it's belly while pulse rifle fire buzzes all around. Isabelle had finished with the tanks, now she's just running around, watching what'll Tan do. Yukio patches himself and joins Snyder's suppressive fire.
Nothing important happens for some time. We're still pinning the quad, and I wonder who will run out of ammo first. Tangers still hanging over the mech's belly, tinkering with the cybernetics, apparently failing to find a proper connection. He pulls himself deeper into the machinery, legs disappearing inside the hatch searching for another plug or socket to jack in. Then the quad starts firing fragmentation mortars catching us on surprise.
We duck and crawl avoiding getting scorched. Isabelle shouts. "Bring it down! Bring it down!"
Not waiting for further clarification I engage my commandeered units to open fire at the quadrupedal mech. Six tanks plus my own and the still standing mech launch a heavy suppressive fire depleting quad's shields, breaking it's armor to pieces. About that time I begin wondering how's Tangers feeling inside, and I guess he's wondering if armor would crush his bones. Maybe he'll have enough courage to jump down the service hatch and meet Isabelle's anger.
Johnes returns from scouting. "Five bombers ETA 30 seconds. We ought to go."
Now I see her running towards the quad, into the crossfire inferno, getting a clear shot in the chest and arm but not stopping, climbing up it's leg and leaping inside the service hatch. I imagine her plugging in and passing through the walker's logic cores, recompiling a new OS, loading into hardware and doing a long debugging session, all done in half a second of necrine trance. Quad halts in mid-step. Five seconds later we see Tangers falling on the ground and she follows, beaming with pleasure, a successful huntress bragging about her prey.
Four-legged mech opens a telemetry channel with the tank I'm in, overburdening me with unending torrent of command and service data. I assume she recompiled the OS adding verbose feeds just to test if it could drown me. I probe quad's responses - it's quite slow, one leg disabled and armor pierced like moon surface, but it's turrets still operate.
"Another patrol and we're done. Sparzki keep off the bombers, tanks in rear formation."
I glean enough courage to argue. "Master sergant Isabelle, my vehicle is critically damaged. Permission to change?"
She's already in motion, and the rest of squad follow. Quad's radar shows bomber jets closing on. I order tanks to move, mech follows me and for a blink of second an infinitely powerful pain sensation touches my mind, unfortunately what's left of my senses isn't enough to process real life. Urge to check what's happening with me is put aside as the bombers approach quad's range. Opening fire on all flak windows, both mechs responding properly, taking out one bomber then a missile salvo hits the quad and the mech, third projectile misses my tank by five feet.
It comes to my mind she haven't responded to my plead, next second the tank's engine stops. Gas turbine suffering catastrophic damage, restart impossible. Squad and the six tanks are grabbing forward, more and more distant from me every second. Quad's gone, blown away, and the remaining mech's reporting REV-bat damage and munition packs malfunction.
Nowhere to run. Alone.
I think of shutdown, of computer destruction, of breaking every single terminal in existence. It's enough for helmet to understand my mental command, and it disconnects me from the sensorium. Return of my body senses shake me thoughtfully and I scream inside the tank wreck, hysterically jerking and ramming my hands no one hearing me.
I wonder what's Isabelle thinking now seeing the six tanks stop behind her. Probably she's already transferring their command telemetry to Tangers. I don't know. What I do see coming, right now, are two bombers closing on to my wreck, launching more missiles ripping through the tank chassis leaving me just enough room to sneak out of the hull and drop to ground feeling blood coming over my face and opening the helmet visor, breathing outside air first time in weeks.
Then it's cold.
Second thing I remember are Snyder and Yukio arching above me, whispering something - dressed in crude white wool pants. I'm in a structure or vehicle of some kind, still in my suit, visor down. My back doesn't hurt and my left hand is still a meat soup. Scents of death and disease float around the dim light and my nose twitches.
"Rise and shine cooney. There's work to do."
They stand back and I get to see where I am. It's a room with concrete walls and multitude of pipes and cables running on the roof. On my left there's another armored suit, chest and shoulder inscriptions reveal it's Rodgers, he doesn't move. I touch his hand opening a service channel but suit's giving no readouts so I give up.
"He's gone, Serg. Mortal concussion, brain hemorrhage." Snyder's once rasp voice is cut in two. "I could have saved him if there wasn't that-"
"Shut up, Sny." Yukio looked straight into my eyes. "You see, me and my wolf buddy have, err, slacked."
"Deserted. Left for good." Snyder corrected.
Bleak fluorescent light groups on the ceiling manage to blind my eyes. Floor is of same hard concrete as the walls, and on the walls there are wooden shelves tucked with all sorts of stuff, mostly some kind of boxes and bottles. I get up on my feet and look around, slowly, not to interrupt pleasant nothingness on my back. A quick glance reveals more than a dozen people - furs and humans - dressed in rags, lying on dirty mattresses. Some are nude. Very few actually move or breathe, and they who do sound like a flattened bagpipe. Almost every breathing figure is having two metal pails - a bigger and a smaller one within reach - and I guess what they contain. At room's end there are two doors, one door is open and I wonder where does it leads. Then I notice by buddies took my rifle and ammo.
Disarmed and puzzled I look back to vulpine. "What happened?" So stupid, so down-to-earth question.
After five seconds of silence Yukio replies, not without hesitation. "We got split. Isabelle, Johnes and Tangers went attacking the base, me and Snyder got back searching for you."
"Me?" Would there be any traces of compassion after a month of Isabelle's drill? After a month of ass-kicking? I really don't know.
Snyder's looking at me seriously. "After Leonov and Rodgers I couldn't stand another execution. So I came back for you." I have it from your own words, Sny. You didn't have a heart of stone but of something else.
"But - we must return to our squad leader. Where are we?"
Yukio glanced at something then turned around. "Heh. There was a mixed fur-human village near that UN base, and we dragged you in there, avoiding patrols. So yeah, you see, we're in a basement hospital of sorts."
As my gaze wanders out through the open doors I see a hallway leading to another room, pretty similar to one we're at, with difference of metal beds instead of plain mattresses visible through the doorway. I begin to envy myself wearing a powered suit. "Now what? We're lost without a squad leader. We must find a way of getting back home to C5."
Snyder grabs my shoulder. "There is life outside the cities, Sergei. Look around."
The room bounces back and forth my eyesight, and I feel dizzy. Something's so wrong. Red-tail taps my forehead then kneels at Rodgers, dismounting armor from the corpse. He touches my hips. "Take off your suit."
"Wh - why?" Suddenly, I feel so fragile.
A short look down is enough to shock me. Down on the floor, I'm seeing Rodgers' body, now a skinny, pale, and dirty lupine. His left hand and neck is a foul battlefield where infection overpowered the smart-bandage. The wolf's muzzle gaps slightly open, tongue dipping out, eyes closed, the muscular fur matted with sweat and smudged with blood. Away from combat, in a small room like this, it's a disturbing sight. His stomach's swell and suit's cushion pillows are splotched red and yellow and brown. I put a healthy hand over my nose, dazed by the month-worth of odor buildup. Rodger's corpse reeks like every good corpse does.
"Many would kill to spend half an hour in that armor." Snyder measures my reaction. "And your pelt haven't seen daylight for a month. Come on."
Yukio touches a release latch on my belt and I confirm the mental command, ordering the exosuit to unclamp from my body. I pant and whimper as the smart-bandage on my back shifts and changes position. A stream of fresh blood shivers through the bandange and down my back, sipping across my wet tail and my shamefully soiled rear. My left hand's a big white bandaged blob, and I hope there's enough stem-cell ointment to let it regenerate. Yukio and Snyder take off parts of my suit as they slowly detach and fall off my body.
Someone whispers hearing my moans, reminding me I'm not the only one suffering.
"Here ya go, Sny." Yukio takes off my boots and hands them to wolf who carries my gear to the other room.
I'm shaking. I'm standing on my bare paws, looking like a confused raccoon kit, who imagined playing a super-soldier with his buddies, watched by the careless mother. Now, homeless and futureless, I stand nude among the unknown.
Damned fox slaps my butt. "Sparky coon! Grab Rodgers, we gotta carry him to a recycling tank."
I silently obey, kneeling and grabbing dead wolf's shoulder, feeling a blood dribble increase as my back is loaded. Yukio grins, lifting wolf's legs and turning back on me. "I have to find you something to wear. You can't go around the place naked."
Dribbling blood and panting hot steam, following a tail-wiggling fox carrying a corpse through dark tunnels of a barely surviving underground co-op, I enter a world completely unknown to me. A parallel world I only heard stories and rumors about. A cosmos of now.
The Wild.
"Some find nudity offensive," Yukio adds to his previous remark, "these aren't liberal places, remember. We're on the Earth's surface."
Will I ever see City Five again? What awaits us in this place?
"But we are C5 citizens!" I say, panting. "We can make an ELF radio and call a dropship or a shuttle to..."
"We are dust." Yukio cuts me off, his voice flat. "Our citizenship was revoked the moment we became deserters."
"What?" I scream, then listen to the echo of it, bouncing through the empty halls.
He presses a button using his nose. "Stand back!"
A loud pump powers up behind us, engaging a pair of cylinders which reveal a hatch on the deck below us.
"This is it." Yukio says, putting Rodgers on the riveted ground. "End of the line, buddy. Ashes to ashes..."
"Dust to dust." I finish, not knowing what else to say. We drop Rodgers' body inside the hydroponics recycler, and watch it slowly sink into the liquid.
The sour scent of dung and disease crawls up my nostrils and I let it go. We can never go home. There are no tears but through the abyss of memories I imagine myself crying. We are dust.
In two years I met Isabelle again, but this time we were on opposite sides.
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Sergei Sparzki's Retrospective - Entering the wild by Kishni
Author:
kishnievrat
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